There is no such thing as a "New Beginning"

      I find myself becoming less and less a fan of the idea of reinventing yourself. Going some place else, breaking up, moving out, finding a new job, getting a new style, Etc, etc, etc. This idea really bugs me because it is based on the assumption that we are static. It operates with the "foundation" that we set our identity and it remains that way time immemorial. The problem with this view is the idea that something is static, that it will remain the same for all time. This can not occur because of Entropy, the force in the world that tries to make the universe homogeneous in its energy. This homogeneous state becomes chaos, because all information is spread out evenly and randomly over a given area. If the energy was in a pattern, it would no longer be homogeneous. Given this, our bodies, rocks, food, everything around us is trying to collapse into a lower state of energy. But, Emergence then happens, things around this breaking down object take advantage of it and create new things. Just like the sugars in rotting fruit keep breaking down and get to a point in which we can not eat it. But the mold, yeast and insects around it will take this and use it to build something useful to them. We use this as well, breaking things down by chewing and hydrochloric acid in our stomachs and using the leftover part to build our bodys. This is happen all the time around you and in you. So how is it that this idea of something static could come about? Because you don't see the change.

It could be a said that is a distortion in our views based on our perceived temporal scale. We see things based on the days, hours, minutes, seconds. How clearly do you remember a minute ago, an hour, a day, a week, a year? Unless you have photographic memory and are lacking stress you will most likely a have a harder and harder time remembering the further and further back you try to remember. Our memories are what we are able to base our relative measure of time off of. Remembering a what has happened and putting some kind of unit of measure to it gives us some kind of reference to what would otherwise just be memories that didn't have much context. But it's this context that gives us a framework, and with this framework we have a sense of time, of progression. So why the view of being static? I think it's because we lose our framework and are use to our self. So we don't see the small changes. I also think that most people are not paying attention to self  changes as much as external changes. So it's easy to miss the tiny acts of entropy changing us every day.

So why new Beginnings? I have a feeling new beginnings come from a "lack" of entropy in our life. One can't stop the entropy of their body and things around them, but they can try to stop it in they way they live life. Patterns form, they become the only thing you know and the thing that gives you security in life. The idea that nothing else is certain in the world other than your pattern, this can be a comforting thing when faced with the idea of "scary chaos." But how certain is it? Chaos/entropy with always creep back in to break it down, and if you build the expectation in your mind that it will be static what will happen when it breaks? You feel like it has failed, like it's time for a new beginning. The the loop starts all over again, something brings you down, you build a pattern to feel secure in your self, entropy breaks the pattern and you have a new beginning. So when will entropy break that pattern??

I would guess that for some, death would break it as they never get out of it. And if they don't want to break out of it that's ok, It's their life to live. But what if you want to get out of it? Then don't do it to start it. How do you do that? Well that is for another post.